god is my dad being that my real dad was never there and left me to deal with this cold cruel world all alone and god is the only one who has been pulling me thru it all. when i was four years old my real dad sexually molested and abused and beaten and fed me alcohol to put me to sleep at night because he was to much in to his addiction and when ever he would abuse me i would steel beer out of the fridge and get drunk because it was the only thing that made me feel good back then,and then when i was 9 my friend (steve)gave me my first line of meth and then i fell in love with the way it made me feel and i continued to use untill july 6,2007 when i got caught with a 8 ball of meth and i thank my dad\god that i got caught because i was down to 75 pounds and i was dieing (slowing killing myself)and i was all sucked up well the courts gave me prop 36 and a drug program and the drug program told me about narcotics anonymous and ive been going now for about 83 days now and im still clean and in the basic text this prayer realy hit me deep GOD grant us the knowledge that we may write according to your divine precepts. instill in us a sence of your divine precepts. instill in us a sence of your purpose. make us servents of your will and grant us a bond of selflessness,that this may truly be your work, not ours-in order that no addict,anywhere,need die from the horrors of addiction. FROM AN ADDICT NAMED sensei jayson cole
I stopped writing for a while but Holy Crow! Jason, thanks for the share. You are one determined man. Thank God for NA. Thank God for people like you. It gives us all strength to hear about such a great acomplishment.
Yours in Recovery, Kenh
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