This is one of my favorite JFT that I've read so far. This is exactly how i felt when i came in, but ironically i WANTED some boredom in my life lol. My life had been such a circus of jails and ambulances and hospitals and fights and suicide attempts and overdoses that when i cleaned up the last thing in the world I wanted was excitement. I kind of imagined having some kind of quiet monastic life and that actually sounded good.

For the first week or so.

But my how much that has changed. Since I've gotten clean i had gone camping, fishing, learned how to knit, learned how to embroider, (which to me is FUN though it may sound boring to you guys lol). The other day when i was driving back from the lake and i saw some horses and i was thinking man I would love to go horseback riding some day, i wonder if theres horseback-riding lessons? Even though i grew up in texas, I've never been on a horse, we don't all wear cowboy hats and ride horses :P
Then i realized, now that I'm clean something like that is actually possible. It is entirely feasible that I could go take one of those little riding classes where you follow a guide through some of the park trails around here.
And this may sound silly but I've always wanted to take up archery, even though its expensive, but that too is entirely possible to have as a goal. I could actually do that one day if i stay clean.

That is freedom from active addiction. I no longer have to obsess about drugs, drugs are no longer my life. I have all these little projects started because I'm trying to figure out what it is I like to do. I've got this whole world opened up to me and its like a playground with all these new experiences and its certainly not boring!

-- Edited by Keli at 07:59, 2007-09-13