this goes out to all and exspecial the newcomers. there is this guy(STEVEN) that been in here a few times. the one that says he knows me. will i do know him and i wish i never did. he was my drug dealer and more. will hes not clean and hes in here to see who he can get to talk to him about getting them drugs. so stay away from him and if you does talk to you someway let me know. i figured this out when we talked and he was at the meeting i go too. he is very tricky and i do not want him to fool all of you like he has me. will thanks. jayson cole
I went to a meeting in San Francisco where the connections stand outside the meeting waiting for there old clients to give in to the temptations.
There always going to be out there, I go to my old neighborhood where i used to cop dope every now and then I hunker my adss down in the seat sometimes LOL no I dont owe anyone a dime but I just dont want to see the crap .
Thanks Keli, I feel good at 4 months and a day. Should have been 16 months but that's the way in went. I won't let the relapse happen again. I have looked at the triggers and indicators in depth for my relapse. I slowed up on the meetings stopped praying as often. Decided that girls were not drugs, shouldn't be a problem, even though deep down I knew it was. Whenever I start to slow down, I make a concience effort to pick it back up. When the girl thing is getting to me, I call my wife or mother and that gets rid of that feeling in a hurry. My sponsor has not been working out as we are kind of the same towards the books. We did all 12 steps in about 3 weeks! Never really did anything, just did some speed reading.So I am looking for a new sponsor.
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he is very tricky and i do not want him to fool all of you like he has me. will thanks. jayson cole
Well, if he's tryin' to fool any of us here, then I'm sure he's found his match as he is dealing with "chronically tricky" people here who've been to hell and back I guess
May he find the light that we have all found... My prayers for him.
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