"We are achieving freedom from the wreckage of our past."
Basic Text p. 45
When we start the Ninth Step, we've reached an exciting stage in our recovery. The damage done in our lives is what led many of us to seek help in the first place. Now, we have a chance to clean up that wreckage, amend our past, and reclaim our lives.
We've spent a long time and much effort preparing for this step. When we came to NA, facing the debris of our past was probably the last thing we wanted to do. We started doing it privately with a personal inventory. Then, we opened our past up to the scrutiny of a select, trusted few: ourselves, our Higher Power, and one other person. We took a look at our shortcomings, the source of much of the chaos in our lives, and asked that all those defects of character be removed. Finally, we listed the amends needed to set our wrongs right - all of them - and became willing to make them.
Now, we have the opportunity to make amends-to acquire freedom from the wreckage of our past. Everything we've done so far in NA has led us here. At this point in the process of our recovery, the Ninth Step is exactly what we want to do. With the Twelve Steps and the help of a Higher Power, we are clearing away the rubble that for so long has stood in the way of our progress; we are gaining the freedom to live.
Just for today: I will take advantage of the opportunity to reclaim my life. I will experience freedom from the wreckage of my past.
Thanks for the read. This is something to think about daily. The pathetic life of using is a thing of the past, the hard lessons we have all learned on the streets can help us perservere in our new lives.
Kenh.
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God is the only one you can depend on in recovery.
I was going to be my usual selfish self today and go gold dredging even though the plan last week was for my girlfriend and her son to go with me today but my girlfriends son got injured last week and can't walk much now he as really bumbed out so I think instead i'll just hang out with them go make them some breakfast and watch movies.
Have to start considering others instead of ourselves so much especially if we want them in our lives!
I am able today to make ammends I made one last night with my Mom apologizing for my past and of course she's just greatful i'm not still doing the things I used to do thats all she wants from me.