Something that I read along with a Sponsee this evening...
Even after years clean, when we have been working a program of recovery and seeking change, we may at times experience periods when life seems meaningless. We may experience a sense of alienation too painful to ignore. At such times, we may find ourselves moving away from sanity, not toward it. We may begin to question our commitment to recovery. We can become obsessed with self-destructive thoughts. We may feel an urge to fall back on what seems easier: the familiar ways of our addiction. During these times, we need to renew our commitment to recovery. We trust that we are undergoing a fundamental transformation, even though we may not yet understand its full implication for our lives. As painful as it seems, we must change. if we trust that there is growth despite the pain, we can walk through these difficult periods more readily.
During these times, relying on the Second Step provides us with hope and reminds us that we are not alone. If things don't feel right, we take time to think and seek suggestions from our Sponsor. We trust that, with help from other recovering addicts and a Power greater than ourselves, we can be restored to sanity in all areas of our lives. We draw upon what we have learned from going to meetings and following directions. We accept that life on life's terms may not always be to our liking or, more importantly, to our understanding. Sanity often means that we don't act on our first impulse. We begin to make choices that help us rather than harm us. What worked for us in the beginning remains applicable, no matter how many years we have been clean. Once again, we reapply ourselves to the basics of the program: going to meetings, reaching out for help, and working the steps. Although we may feel despair, there is hope; a Power greater than ourselves is always available to us.
The best thing that I could have read today. Reading this part of literature on Step Two again after quite a while felt so refreshing and meaningful
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
I needed to read this today. I don't know whats wrong with me but I have been frustrated and biting peoples heads off for no reason this morning, and I don't even know what I'm so frustrated about. I know that thats old behavior. Of course it could also be something much more simple (PMS? lol) but I need to get back to the basics anyways regardless. Thank you Tahir
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We are not human beings learning to become spiritual, we are spiritual beings learning to become human.
Hi Keli, I am sorry that you are not feeling good. Some time it feels like going back to the old pathetic way might be okay. You know it isn't. Just stay strong, I can tell that you are a very smart person. You just need to be strong one day at a time. You also know it works. Thanks for being strong.
Kenh.
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God is the only one you can depend on in recovery.
ive learnt the hard way that when im feeling insane,, its best to tell myself "Im insane" when feeling insane,,, my first reaction is horror,,, "oh man I was feeling so good till this madness !" However going back to safe ground is a process,, Thy will be done,,,I walk,Pray, Meditate,,, communicate(share),,, I most of all try to surrender !!! Only then does God detach me from my di-sease !!!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
