My prayers and best wishes to you. So glad that you are a part of this big "Miracle In Progress"... To meet and to separate and to meet again is the life condition for all... Sometimes, I've found it necessary to do so at times, even with my loved ones and friends... Whatever happens in my life today, I know for sure that there is a loving, caring and compassionate intention of my Higher Power behind it, and as long as I have faith and trust in this, I'm able to be at peace and in complete harmony with my Higher Power's will for me...
Shall miss you lots, Vini, and would be waiting for that moment where I would log in here and find your familiar cheerful posts again...
Hugs, Love & Light ~ Tahir.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Hey Vini, I know I havent posted for awhile but I do get on to read and yours are always my fav to read. I see a lot of nonsence going on here and I back away a lot because drama is something I dont want in my life today. Im sorry that there are a small few on this board that rune it for everyone else. This should be a place to come for support and encouragement, your posts always gave me that. I know your a big boy (seen the pictures lol) I hope no one is forcing you to leave and that this is your dicission, either way I will miss you. I hope you continue to share your ESH some where because you have a wonderful message of hope and people need to here it. You will be missed god bless Your sister in recovery Sandra
I am so glad that I was taught never to give up my seat in the room(s) because of any one or anything else. I was told that the price I paid for the chair I am in was way to high to give up so easily, especially if its related to personalities.
I also learned, actually here in cyberspace a few years back that if I don't entertain, endulge in the insanity of others, it won't influcence my life, or decisions, but if I do, it will and most the time my life and decisions will look and feel as insane as those who influenced it.
As you know I have addressed the issue that has you bailing out and I do promise it will be resolved and stay resolved one way or the other. There will not be any more of this BS tolerated from this individual.
Many times i feel a vicious, malicious undertone in a few shares here reminding me to place principles over personalities. Maybe you need a little break Vini. Your posts are awesome. There's another great forum: Hope to see ya there
I got your broadcast email this AM and knowing the amount of love, tolerance and acceptance you possess when it comes to interaction with other members, the addict you took action against in order to protect this room, must have really crossed the line. I really see no reason for you to feel remorse for just being yourself. We can all be pushed to the limit where nothing is left but to act. I feel what you did was and will be appropriate as this situation dictated even though I have no idea who was banned.
I had to admitt to myself and a few others in the meeting last night that I was running from this situation, thats what I do I either run or I fight nothing inbetween and it ALWAYS leaves me feeling like I could have done something better.
I'm trying to learn trying to turn it over and practice principles but it's damn hard fighting this nature of an addict and i am the perfect addict LOL like the perfect storm seems like I live part time in havoc, all my own doing.
I did earn my seat here, for sure, it's not an easy one to give up yesterday was a helluva a day full of emotion, intense inside I felt like doing nothing but putting up a fight , for me to humble myself means walk away but maybe theres an alternative and i know what it is I just have to do it.
I prayed for her I have a connection with this person as a friend but she was hurting me and hurting herself and I still hurt for her even though this has all come about. I sympathize with great sorrow and even see myself in her, yes I did I have done some of the same things myself to others and I understand it for what it is and it's very very sad to be that way.
Thankyou all for your support, John you did what you felt was right and neccessary you don't need forgiveness, everyone one us deserve a chance some aren't going to be ready all the time and just need more time hopefully we make it back or breakthru whatever stands in the way of progress, progress not perfection we're never going to get this 100% right but it can get better it has for me this has been a huge thing, like I said she is me I am her " But for the grace of God, there go I".
when i read the original post yesterday that you were leaving....it really bothered me. i get a lot of hope and faith from your posts. I'm real happy that you're staying. this board has helped me so much by having recovery at my fingertips whenever i need it and your posts are a very big part of the recovery shared here. thanks for posting the just for today....i can never give it the time i want to in the morning b/c it 's so hectic getting out the door to work....I enjoy reading it here with the oppurtunity to post my experience.
I usually get up hours before i leave for work end up getting my butt suck in this chair more often then not but i'm sorta on my own timeline which is really nice and i'm lucky and greatful for that alone.
That's great news for MIP, Sandra. Thanks so much. You rock, my recovery sister... Big NA Hugs to you...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
