you know I used to think that meant life the way you wanted it without the use of drugs LOL well I was wrong it is life and all its glory pain and whatever else it chooses to throw at you and accepting that as is without the use of drugs. So when they told me in rehab that this is not burger king and you cannot have it your way they meant it very better or worse. that is where "what are you willing to do about your problem" comes in just how far are you wiling to go to get this thing"this" being recovery. Let me assure you there is no easier softer way!!! I can tell you that things do seem better in fact today is better than the life I lead when I was on drugs it comes with ups and downs sad days as well as many other emotions but I am grateful for good and bad days brcause it means I am not high and I can feel today that is life on lifes terms. This is a feelings disease of course we don't like feeling the bad feeling and are not suer how to even feel the good ones but as you start to collect a few days and able to clearly see what there is to be grateful for it gets harder to stay in a bda spot too long. Love in recovery Manon aka Rayne
keep hanging on Rayne. When I realized what life on life's terms meant and really lived in it I gained a whole new level of acceptance in my life. Problems and situations that have come up since that time have been so much easier to deal with and accept for what they really are. It was painful to go through my intial process of learning true acceptance - and it still is now in each new situation, but now i have some gifts to help me along the way....there's some light at the end of all this just stay in position....god's got this for you!
