We know how to recognize the disease of addiction. Its symptoms are indisputable. Besides an uncontrollable appetite for drugs, those suffering exhibit self-centered, self-seeking behavior. When our addiction was at its peak of activity, we were obviously in a great deal of pain. We relentlessly judged ourselves and others, and spent most of our time worrying or trying to control outcomes.
Just as the disease of addiction is evidenced by definite symptoms, so is a spiritual awakening made manifest by certain obvious signs in a recovering addict. We may observe a tendency to think and act spontaneously, a loss of interest in judging or interpreting the actions of anyone else, an unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment, and frequent attacks of smiling.
If we see someone exhibiting symptoms of a spiritual awakening, we should be aware that such awakenings are contagious. Our best course of action is to get close to these people. As we begin having frequent, overwhelming episodes of gratitude, an increased receptiveness to the love extended by our fellow members, and an uncontrollable urge to return this love, we'll realize that we, too, have had a spiritual awakening.
Just for today: My strongest desire is to have a spiritual awakening. I will watch for its symptoms and rejoice when I discover them. pg. 148
1. An increased tendency to let things happen rather than make them happen. 2. Frequent attacks of smiling. 3. Feelings of being connected with others and nature. 4. Frequent overwhelming episodes of appreciation. 5. A tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than from fears based on past experience. 6. An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment. 7. A loss of ability to worry. 8. A loss of interest in conflict. 9. A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others. 10. A loss of interest in judging others. 11. A loss of interest in judging self. 12. Gaining the ability to love without expecting anything in return.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Amen Brother..Thanks for letting me know Im really not alone in this uphill battle..Love love love..you. It was getting lonley trying to find company..everyone thinks Im possessed..or crazy..or MEAN..LOL!! God is damn funny..I was thinking..how am i gonna fix the confusion of "The fight" No one is getting that God is telling me to stand up for him and justice..Hate the sin..NOT THE SINNER..Just know my motives were good..I love you Rayne..I love NA..I Love addicts!!
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God,Take my will and my life,Guide me in my recovery and show me how to live.
Well..I guess..# 8 doesnt apply..Good and evil are conflicting..but its reaaly cool having the rest to deal with it:) Makes it simple..easy to follow down the narrow path..
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God,Take my will and my life,Guide me in my recovery and show me how to live.
Love you too my recovery sister. When I started perceiving "Good and Evil" as "Good and Unpleasant Good", then the conflict ceased. Grateful to have you here with us at MIP. Blessings and Peace.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
