"Relapses are often fatal. We have attended funerals of loved ones who did from a relapse. They die in various ways. We often see relapsers lost for years, living in misery. Those who make it to jail or institutions may survive and perhaps have a reintroduction to Narcotics Anonymous."
Little over 9 months ago I relapsed, stayed out one night the next morning I called someone who is my spiritual sponsor and told her what I had done and what had been happening to me.
She told me first off dump the garbage and I did then we just talked, I cried so hard felt ashamed and lost again but she boosted my heart and my faith, she helped me realizer that what I had done wasn't a bad thing it was natural but what I needed to do was grab my boot straps and pull myself back up off that floor hold my chin up and try again.
I have not relapsed in over 9 months now that is a miracle normally I go back out for years to ashamed to come back but let me tell you there is NO SHAME HERE, notr with me , we're all addicts and we're going to screw up one way or another over and over again until we get it right and a better understanding of what we're up against
I am whats called a retread from 1984 that is when I was introduced to the programs and I never got more then a year clean until 1998.
One day at a time thats how this is done sometimes that has to be broken down into hours, minutes and seconds sometimes I stay cleaqn by the second NO LIE.....
So yeah come back, if you've fallen pull up those boot straps and get back on the tour de NA
Hey BigV, thanks for sharing that bro. Not far from the milestone of 365 miracles, aint you? CONGRATS, you have been a great source of support and inspiration here at MIP for me, and I'm sure for many others. Hugs and Love.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
