I am new to the online n/a meetings and in need of some real help. I have been off of opiates for over 4 months. Still cannot sleep and the thoughts that run thru my head. OMG!!!!! It's terrible. I guess I need to realize that I have a disease and will never be like "normal" people again. To be totally honest, deep, deep down I still think I can take that one pill and won't get hooked again. I know that the disease talking. Thanks for letting me vent out my problems. Kevin.
sounds a if you might need to get to meetings that you can as well as working the steps the program promises freedom from active adiction and the obession will be lifted with work KEEP COMING BACK!!!!!!
Hi kevin, thanks for your share. I relate to ur struggles from my early days. This is my experience: I remember thinking to myself, "just one". When did I ever have just one, the simple answer is I did not. That was not part of my vocabulary, and the concept was alien to me. I never said, "no thanks i have had enough". For me I was looking for a loophole, some way of finding what I really wanted to do, which on some level was to use and "get away with it". To use without consequences. Took me a long time to figure out i could not have one without the other. Kids took off me, family gone, no home, no life, no prospects, no hope. Degraded, humiliated and dead inside, i had a moment of clarity where I saw my life for what it really was. I was no longer willing to pay the price. I wanted out, but had no idea how. Then I found NA through H&I, thank God.
I guess I need to realize that I have a disease and will never be like "normal" people again.
For me your above quote is the essense of the principle I was missing. Acceptance. Why me? Why am I an addict? When can I use again? How can I go back in time and change all this? AARRGGHH!!!
Step 1. Through surrender I found acceptance.
This did not happen over night for me, acceptance of my disease, my addiction, this new way of life, was a process not an event. When I stopped struggling and kicking I found some freedom.
This was my journey, you are on yours. More will be revealed my friend. my only suggestion is get in the middle of NA, where you will be safe. Where you will be held when you wobble. Meetings, sponsorship, service and HP. These are the things i have done since i came to NA and am still doing today. It works!!
LnF
Vicki C
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Hi Kevin, I am also an addict and I am addicted to opiates and I go thru the same things your talking about! As a matter of fact, yesturday was a really bad day for me. I thought "Kara ONE more pill isnt going to hurt you" and I sat and fought with my nasty addiction for hours. I have faith in your sobriety Kevin. I would give you some advice but right now im in no position to be giving advice..when im new at this also and trying to take this minute by minute to stay clean and sober.
But I am a very good listener and will try my best to help with whatever problem you may have! Id say us being addicted to the same thing we could really relate!
Kara, welcome to Miracles In Progress Family. Keep coming back, we need you.
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Kara, welcome to Miracles In Progress Family. Keep coming back, we need you.
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my son is a narcotics addict and from his experiences and reading other addicts forums on line.It can take a few weeks or even month to start sleeping and feeling normal. There is also something called paws-post acute withdrawl syndrome. some people have sysmptoms for a longer period.They decrease over time. hang in there
Yo Kev, This addiction thing is a trip huh? One way to get past the cravings is to pray and be sure we make meetings regularly. When we truly surrender and let the program work in our lives we will receive its promise the freedom from active addiction. But, that can only happen when we do the work required. Get a homegroup, a sponser, get in service, and make meetings. The program works. We just have to allow its process to work in our lives.
I just wanted to say Thank You from the bottom of my heart for all of everyone's help. It just goes to show that N/A and A/A are probably the only programs where everyone is willing to help a total stranger. I'm still doin' good (as far as using, I haven't) for like 5 months. Working the steps is a whole other story. I think I am making it harder than it really is. Well, thanks to everyone. Have a peaceful and serene day. Kevin.
That is so true about the 12-step fellowships. I have also found these places to be the only ones where I'm accepted and loved unconditionally for what and who I am. And it's all given free where many contribute their time, interests and energy for me even if they are not related to me or don't know who I am. Isn't that something amazing in this age where there is so much of chaos and disorder? The noble cause of these 12-step fellowships is a perfect blessing that I could have ever got in such a hopeless scenario... Sometimes my fantasy is that everyone on Earth just follows the steps and traditions, what a wonderful outcome that would bring? Maybe, it's too much of wishful thinking on my part... lol...
CONGATULATIONS ON 5 MONTHS CLEAN, KEVIN. YOU ROCK. KEEP THE MIRACLE ALIVE.
NA HUGS AND FELLOWSHIP LOVE.
Tahir.
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I'm brand new here, just joined today. Can someone help me out? I'm actively using an opiate (oxycodone) and I want to stop. Can I email anyone or is anybody available to chat? Thanks, Mary
Hi Mary - Welcome! You are in the right place. Where are you from? Have you been to any meetings? I am really glad that you are here. Please keep coming back. NA members are always glad to help. That is why we are here. None of us got and stayed clean on our own. It is a process. It does not happen overnight. Please keep coming back.
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Hello Mary, I'm sorry Mary I meant to post a reply to your message yesterday, I must have deleted it somehow. SORRY!! Anyway, Maggie is excatly right, we need you. Please keep coming back. You will find the miracle too, just like thousands upon thousands of other people did. The only way to hold onto what you get is to give it back to others in need. I love that quote. Good luck, Mary. Please post as often as you wish. Kevin.
