So I finally had time to sit down and read some of the posts and get caught up on how everyone here is doing. So what happened??? This board filled me with hope and joy for myself and others every time I came here in the past. Now I feel controversy and bickering??? We are here to recover together in love and unity. We were such a loving and supportive group where did all that go. I come here to share and read others ESH not for bickering about how others chose to recover/or not. Why cant we just let people say what they want and if we are offended or disagree with them just simply not reply . In my experience here if I dont know how to react to a post, someone else who has had the same experience always jumps in and offers support and in the end I always learn something from them. I was told a long time ago if I dont have anything nice to say , dont say anything at all. Who am I to judge another. We are not therapist all we can do is listen. Some times when I share my struggles I really dont need a reply , sometimes just typing it out helps me. I come here to share the love and joy and some days pain of my recovery, so please if you dont like what I post know that I just like everyone else have a right to be me. Dam NA has taught me how to be real and we shouldn't give that up for anything. Please just love each other and be there for each other, caring and sharing the NA way.Thats the only way this thing called recovery works. I love all my brothers and sisters in recovery even the ones that confuse and scare me, we are here to learn from each other. PLEASE SHARE THE LOVE Sandra
ty sandra for you r post i agree at times i am not sure how to respond but at times feel the need to maybe i should just let it go i do appriciate your observation and tend to agree not at all ssaying i am perfect or not to own my part I do and need to manon
I agree Sandra and i've admitted I can be a bit argumentitive at times and some of these things going on confuse me because i'm pushing down the reaction and trying to give these people some program and whats worked for me.
Have to realize we're not in the same exact place some are dealing with bitterness beyond comprehension, some are just playing games with us, those of us who feed into it that is. I've seen it here before commented, ignored, felt guilty for not believing them, been angry for what were probably games, maybe I take it all to serious but for me it is, it's very serious it's life and death for some of us if we don't get this, this is some of ours last and only HOPE in this world to stay alive and get clean and live a good life.
I'm no angle, i'm no program gooroo(can't even spell it LOL ) I keep from struglling by coming here and seeing newcomers here asking for help because it gets me out of myself and concerned about others instead of just my problems.
I never EVER dreamed I could get clean and be HAPPY and somewhat fullfilled and feel peace inside but since I came to this board after relapsing it's helped me get there more then i've ever had before and I HAD a good chunk of time clean I just wasn't sober minded I was freaken insane still.
Sometimes we have to look past the negative and look into whats good in things, the intentions here by many are good so I hang onto that, I know mine are and you two gals up above me i'm sure of also and many others that post here from time to time .
I'm sorry but you're all gonna hate me. As a newbie and an outsider this is what I have observed about this forum.
All the posts ever say are, "You've come to the right place, we need you, we like you, we're here for you, etc......." I know it's all part of NA and forgive me for being an ignorant tard, as I've never been to an NA meeting before, but it all sounds so........almost fake. I know that's what NA is all about and perhaps it's because I'm SOOOO new to this I'm just not used to it all.
When in all honestly all I can think sometimes is, "You don't know me so you can't possibly care about me and you don't really give a rat's behind if I stay or go."
I guess I'm just saying if it's all about love, peace and harmony then it just all sounds so practiced, preached and rehearsed, like, it doesn't seem "real."
But then again what do I know I know nothing of NA! Anyway, I was just observing as an outsider.......
I apologize in advance for anybody I've offended and I'm sure it's probably all of you.
