Hello everyone!! I just back last night from being down at the coast with my family. the trip was only to be for just over a week , but i just couldn't tear myself away from my family. my parents are old and in rough physical health so every visit could be the last time i see one of them.
If i lived in a prefect world with all the resources, i would move back in with them and care for them. just the everyday things that we as the younger generation take for granted , is a major trail for them, such as cleaning the kitchen , bending over , putting there shoes on, making the bed, walking across the room is a challenge in itself. but because of my addiction , i'm not in the position to help them like they need and i'd like.
because of when i was using i lost my job down there , i lost all my resources to help them financally. and am now living up in the north ,trying to get my life back together. instead of spending the remaining time my parents have here on earth , making memories and lightening there burden. sigh... if we only knew then what we know now eh?...lol
this isn't what i origanally started to write here today. what promted me to post was to say that i love you all. i started skimming through the posts since i've been away and the most wonderful feeling came over me as i read the love and concern ,joy and sorrow that is always being shared here/ and ive missed you all so much. you are like an extended family now to me. and being able to share all these wonderful things lightens my heart and soul. thank you for letting me be a part of your lives and being a part of mine
to all my old friends and the new ones here i haven't met yet . i hope this new year will find us walking the journey of recovery together ....peace love and hope ...peggy
i am glad you are back and look forward to seeing you in the chatroom. Just a thought remember that the best gift you can give your parents is in fact the gift of staying in recovery. Lets face it nothing else is possible without it so keep doing what you need to do to stay clean thats caring for them in the best possible way. See ya soon.
I can also relate with that frustration about not being able to be there at all times as I would like to,with and for my parents... Very difficult to find a loving and caring intention of my Higher Power behind this situation in context with my parents... But I trust that there is one, and I will know it in time.
Thanks for sharing about the wonderful time with your parents. Truly, recovery starts at home, as I have heard many oldtimers say...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
