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Post Info TOPIC: Addict mentality causage point


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Addict mentality causage point


A main issue causing addiction; 

thinking about how something will be to live with for the rest of your life.

Imagine if the casual worker did that, they would be unable to withstand the horror of it...

its a neurodivergence.

 

A drug may be an activation factor for this growth, causing increased drain of surplus. 

Reason; massive microbiological stress streaming to the west especially.

 

stabilitypoint: Looking only at streaks,

realizing that layers, baselayers, can be added and removed by for example going to retreats, reprogramming aspects of life on auto mode. It becoming a not hard thing to do, like eating is hard to learn as baby but becomes beautiful.

 

I spotted an issue; inner baby - like a partial comatose while awake, causing it to be hard to introduce new layers causing transformable divergent point and possibly a main factor in the addict mentality although lacking sorely as a descriptor of the addict divergence; perceiving things normal to others as too hard to have to keep doing; due to blocked automation ability.

 

Acknowledging the ant-type work, however only when its one layer out of several, for human. 



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Personally I quit mentally masturbating on why I am an addict long ago. My focus is on recovery from active addiction, living and enjoying life Clean.



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Did not try to comprehend. Much like not trying to see a tree as you walk past it.

I have begun looking at the ground every day.

Its much like a car expert sees what car engine is by the look of it, a programmer the programming language, a vet the gender etc.

 

Or like having an idea of what is beneath the clothes when looking at a person. Including knowing if the person excercises or not.

 

except its not my profession, even if I was forcibly educated. Freedom of education, whatever uses me doesnt get to.



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I found a major reason!

Biological stress and strain. Holy **** its a breakthrough.

The stress, the microbiology of the norm in the environment causes a need to alter bodily and brainwise chemistry; altering the conditions and thereby how microbiology is present.

This can be achieved in other ways also; like monks live - minimalism, veganism, not eating sugar etc. and generally changing environmental factors by improving health and participation in the World instead of worsening it by adding more of what is necessary to move away from in the first place.

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I had this idea; that some spirit tried a day of how I live and I a day of its life. That was quite a while back.

So I thought; my life is currently a sufferable hell although its begun getting better recently; however if I lived a year of its life (I did not live a year of its life and it was sufferable before already) Id be lucky - mine used to be scarier (the words that shaped was more that mine is scarier, however I did think of the past there); even if I felt good while active I knew every day that I was sinking deeper and deeper into like swamp and that the low, suffering and horror in the future was only growing.

In other words; if the day was one of comfort from how I lived while active that would be experienced then it may be comfortable or not that bad; however a nightmarish low would follow.

An addict suffers extensively; the perceptual pain of the low oncoming becomes so severe that you have a need to shut off and typically do so by what you know; the drugs - rather than for example minimalizing, improving veganism or similar in a way bringing you serenity. Its a self locking situation (and it does not end upon death... *spiritual part); the result is an increase of the low and even deeper suffering, causing the perceptual pain to grow and so forth.

Today Im getting cleaner. I have the past several years even with major points of relapse starting early April 2016 ending mid-2017. Even if life sufferable its less so, although a pain I am not as used to and that causes need for growth of this type of resilience. I must admit its going quite well.

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My grandmother on my fathers side, my father said drank alcohol to the point of alcoholism. I did not know this till recently. As a child when visiting her I was fed large quantities of fat on white bread; reminding strangely of alcohol.

I experience being commendable on certain points, we know that gut cultures interact through the nervous system with the brain.
I had horrible stomachaches as a child.

Transfer from my grandmother to me; using me as a host carrying on addiction. Then a transfer jumping from my fathers one sister to me in 2015 autumn.

 

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i have been suggested a clinic in CPH to get a gut/stomach cleansing. Some hydrocleansing.

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I have experienced my free will being commandable while smoking hash and while taking a drug causing highs of mindfulness. A friend simply pointed and i locked over and over again. Other worse commands have been placed; dragging me towards relapse to drugs. Gut culture connected.

 

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Also means this is a path of partial immortality; through interfacing with gutculture. Seems more to me like this is getting your being connected to life in a horrible and sufferable way for a long time. Causage for overpopulation and harming veganism.

 

4th EDIT: 

Its recycleable; the method, the situation, the stomachculture and applicable in different ways. Can become something good.

 

5th EDIT:

Aint gonna remain living like this. I despise being at home or in one environment; what is accustomed to, all the time.

 


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Nobody 'gave' us addiction we chose it. Addiction is obsessive compulsive total self centeredness. The sooner we stop pointing fingers at others and the sooner we can start working on our program of recovery.

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Can we all agree that each individuals inner child is not a stomachculture? Nor a mental formation generated from a stomachculture - for example through nervous system interfacing?

The inner child is something fundamentally different.

Inspiration for working with addiction though.
Can we be addicted to misusing gutcultures in our stomach?

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We can only infect others passively through our living, our interaction and the damage we cause; the surplus we drain.

Look at my post about the fellowship sacrificing anonymous. Everyone can identify as an addict although some are in a lot deeper than others...



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In Danish NA at least we say rebuild our trustability.

The thing is; though i have said i need to live in tropics for years (seems this follows wherever i went to holiday with family; parents presence); there was not that trustability in my words. However i was not old enough for the trustability to have worth on that point to begin with (me saying what i need), as I began marijuana addiction at age fifteen - draining the trustability that was quite low to begin with due to the lifestyle i was born into.

I never had the chance to experience having trustability in a way I would see the point in.

Another causage for addiction although this is more unique to me.

 

 

notice the seems? To this; 

The collective system that evaluates my inability to sense what I need does not have the trustworthiness on that point. Im enslaved by it, hindered in what i know I need. I even get convinced of otherwise and my thinking shaped to fit its evaluation. Since pre adulthood.

This does not follow wherever I have been on holiday with my family (as a child I only said Denmark was boring and without mountains; I was not seeking to live in mountaneous areas). I have sought the tropics for several years. Even if it is connected with a month in Venezuela, why would this disprove living in the tropics as a bad idea? I dont even know if i wanted to before. Whateger it is cannot distinguish between information, knowledge, wanting, desiring, seeking etc. and I think its something severely racist. I know it is not me, I am not racist. A collective mental formation possibly, needing to be recycled.



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The collective enslavement system causing workaholism;

How collectivity works; see mental formations and how we constantly interact (pheromones, words, movement, gestures - music, ...)


i think till give quite a lot of XP to take out. Like a mob in WoW

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I'm totally and completely confused by your entire stream of consciousness.

You keep talking about the 'cause' not the cure.

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You seem to be looking for a cure? These are simply points of causage enabling us to work with and overcome hindrances of sobriety/cleanness; a relapse would eventually result. We are in healing; not cured. Besides cures are illusion; however you can go deeper even though eventually you will encounter something new (and will want to take the risk of doing so).

Its hard to formulate.
The point mainly is that these points simply enable us to progress in our healing - we cannot produce a cure, however we can cure points. Notice the we. To me, with my higher power and God; I gotta do my part, its just a decision and dedication of mine (as is earning money).

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Davethewave wrote:

I'm totally and completely confused by your entire stream of consciousness.

You keep talking about the 'cause' not the cure.


 That should have said 

 

You keep talking about the 'cause' not recovery.



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Its steps to find what can be worked on to improve/strengthen recovery and make new methods etc.

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I excuse taking drugs with reading/taking in highly refined waves of light that I have receptors able to read and thus generate change within.

One adds, another causes a different baseenvironment and the mentioned alters what is there. Something like that.
Language and chemical substance is not the same - although there is a fundamental oneness in that both affect.

Hard drugs was added after I began reading angel numbers.
Its like im possessed by a hatred of symbolics - being taught a lesson.
Being forced to not want symbolic input, to return to the state of an animal.

 

Would be nice if it was stuff like this:

the illusion of you keeping providing when your sorroundings do not acknowledge your positive impact on them; keeping you hungry and going. Enslavement. 

 

If you dont have money you will keep working harder to have enough? A social production chamber essentially.

 

 

#recycleTheSystem - like biohacking using gene alteration; it can take on an addictive form (something desired by certain enslavement-of-consumers companies)  at some point yet it is like text 



-- Edited by Ieei on Saturday 20th of January 2018 07:26:19 AM

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