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Post Info TOPIC: JFT November 17 Walking through the pain


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JFT November 17 Walking through the pain


 

 

We never have to use again, no matter how we feel.  All feelings will eventually pass.

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It hurts like never before.  You get out of bed after a sleepless night, talk to God, and still dont feel any better.  It will pass, a little voice tells you.  When? you wonder, as you pace and mutter and get on with your day.

You sob in your car and turn the radio all the way up so you cant hear your own thoughts.  But you go straight to work, and dont even think about using drugs.

Your insides feel as though theyve been torched.  Just when the pain becomes unbearable, you go numb and silent.  You go to a meeting and wish you were as happy as other members seem to be.  But you dont relapse.

You cry some more and call your sponsor.  You drive to a friends house and dont even notice the beautiful scenery because your inner landscape is so bleak.  You may not feel any better after visiting your friendbut at least you didnt visit the connection instead.

You listen to a Fifth Step.  You share at a meeting.  You look at the calendar and realize youve gotten through another day clean.

Then one day you wake up, look outside, and realize its a beautiful day.  The sun is shining.  The sky is blue.  You take a deep breath, smile again, and know that it really does pass.

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Just for today:  No matter how I feel today, Ill go on with my recovery.

 



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Once I realized I don't have to use no more , it was like a weight was lifted off my chest . I know that my recovery will stay in place as long as I practice a clean lifestyle .

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