Change from self-destructive patterns of life became necessary.
Basic Text, p. 15
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Active addiction is a smoldering death-wish. Each of us courted death every time we used. Our lifestyles, too, put us at risk. The life of an addict is sold cheaply with every day and every dose.
In recovery, the first pattern we change is the pattern of using. Staying clean is the start of our journey into life. But our self-destructive behavior usually went far deeper than just our using. Even in recovery, we may still treat ourselves as if we are worthless. When we treat ourselves badly, we feel badly. And when we feel badly, we seek reliefmaybe even in our old solution, drugs.
Choosing recovery means choosing life. We decide each day that we want to live and be free. Each time we avoid self-destructive behavior, we choose recovery.
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Just for today: I will choose life by choosing recovery. I will take care of myself.
Yes , it was necessary to change from my destructive patterns I had .It took a long time to get my self-esteem back I had lost in addiction. There were a few times I thought about using to cure the feelings I had , but that would start the whole problem over again. Now I have chose a life free of drugs and my old ways. I try and take care of myself .
